04.12.2025
You might know me – you might not, but regardless of that you can call me Amon! This blog will be a collection of my essays, thoughts, stories and everything else that comes to my mind. You can read more about this project and me on the other pages, but for now I want to give you some context:
Amon is not my real name, it’s the name of a character that I’ve created. He’s the main character of the book that I’m writing but I also see him as my internet persona. When thoughts are mine and when they are his, is unclear because, essentially, we share the same ideas, just under different perspectives.
When I interact with the character Amon, then I call myself the Author. Any other posts are created by Amon, the internet persona, but in a way also by the character. The only difference is that one Amon is real and the other is not (even though we could argue about that because Amon isn’t my legal name, but I think that’s for another time).
This might sound a bit complicated for the start, but I’ll make sure to dive deeper and to give more insights – I promise you, this is just the start!
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Something important I want to add: If it’s unclear who’s talking, whether it’s fictional or real; or whether something is based in real life or simply created by my imagination – it’s all intentional. The same counts for my book: (if or when I ever actually let it see daylight) nothing is random, everything is always intentional. The intention might not always be clear, but isn’t that the most beautiful thing about art? Even if we all look at the same picture, we are free to interpret however we want, create meaning and explanation however we like. Maybe I had a different idea or intention, but you’re still free to give it a meaning that fits you and your imagination.
Art is fluid, or at least mine is. It can be shaped and rearranged until it all makes sense to you, maybe not to someone else, but to you.
What to expect from this blog:
You probably shouldn’t expect anything, at least not consistency. Also don’t expect me to finish the book any time soon (I’m excited to see if people are interested though-) Best thing would be to have no expectations at all. Just scroll through my posts and enjoy figuring out what’s going on.
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I remember this exact conversation that I had in the beginning of September. I was talking to this woman – she was the yoga instructor at the hostel I was staying at and it was her last night – I hadn’t talked to her at all before that, but that night we just sat together with some other people and started a really good (and long) conversation about all kinds of things, she was especially talking about her own experiences and to me it was very eye-opening in a way. Then she asked me if she could give me some advice. I don’t remember her exact words, but I know that she told me to start publishing my stuff. It doesn’t matter if I’m scared of failure or just scared to start. It doesn’t matter if people actually read or view the stuff I put out there, but I should just do it, take that first step and actually be brave enough to put myself out there, essentially making myself vulnerable but also opening up in a way where I’m able to let so many good things in.
And that’s exactly what I’m doing right now! Even though it took my a while, but better late than never right?
I think what I wish most to achieve with this project, is to at least inspire one other person to put themselves out there – no matter how scary it might seem, because in the end we’re all just human beings.
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The thoughts that transform to sentences and are put down here right at this moment, are thoughts that I don’t share with Amon, they’re mine only, so please take serious what I’m about to tell you while I still speak to you as me. Fully as the person behind the screen.
Spoken from my heart: if you don’t like what I’m doing, then you’re not doing something right. And I don’t mean this in a way where I tell you, that I’m better than you, because I’m not. But I’m telling you this in a way where I picture myself as a little kid. The little kid with big dreams, big hopes and even bigger expectations of life. But the truth is, I’m scared. I’m scared of opinions, of being judged; I’m scared of failure, of anger; I’m scared of putting myself out there and being seen. I’m scared of other people and of life. What I’m trying to say, if you dislike what I’m doing, you’re doing something wrong, because you have no reason to dislike something that means so much to someone else. Only because something doesn’t fit your expectations or doesn’t bring you joy, doesn’t make it fair to dislike it. Like and dislike is something you can choose, so why not choose to be a little bit kinder?
That’s all I have to say.
we were already dead 