we were already dead

In a world that is full of noise
Why do you write?

Constant need for stimulation
Why decide to write?

People closer despite being physically away
Why use pen and paper?

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I feel like I’m loosing my sanity.
No matter where I go, it’s always loud.
Despite my phone being empty, there’s so much.
So much for me to care and tend to.
Is it even necessary?
Being available no matter the day or time.
I need to set boundaries for myself.
I’m a fast replier.
But now it’s draining me.
“I’m on my phone anyway, I guess I can answer.”
But then I overthink when someone else doesn’t do the same.
“Why are they taking so long?”
“Do they not want to talk to me?”
Or do they just have a life?
“I have a life too.”
Seems like it.

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The world is full of noise
I write to quiet the noise in my head.

There’s stimulation everywhere
I decided to write to shift my focus intentionally.

Being able to communicate even when someone is physically away
But I use pen and paper again to relearn patience